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Then Big Ben got in his car, and the other two cops got in theirs, while the crowd around the restaurant began to disperse. That's when Charlie ran up to the car and shouted, "Hey, Paul, hang tough, amigo…see you soon!

We Brodied out onto the highway amid a swirl of gravel and mud, and all kinds of things flashed through my head: like maybe I'd go to jail for twenty years; marijuana was a big offense in those days. But I wasn't really scared; in fact, I felt a strange sort of satisfaction: the acid brought me to the realization that I had created the episode myself, had genereated my own personal catharsis at the cops' expense. I didn't blame them; if anything, I felt slightly guilty for deceiving them.

Sitting Indian-style in the cage in the back of the squad car, I watched the clouds clear. I could see hundreds of stars glittering crisply in the heavens. Everything seemed clean and promising and gradually a flood of emotion swelled up inside me; tears streamed down my face. It seemed as though I had just returned from the bottom of the world, that I had been stomped on and stamped with the mark of civilization, but that I had survived and was still free. I flashed on Black Beard sitting in the full lotus and smiled through my tears.

I saw the strength in his face and the light in his eyes when he shouted at me through the window, and I felt like a warrior. The moon broke through the clouds and Big Ben and I watched it out the window. He saw the tears and asked if my hand was okay. I was booked in San Mateo and released the following morning to the custody of my parents in Los Angeles. I ran away again, a a week later I met Black Beard in Malibu ; we palled around together for several weeks before he split for New Mexico.

That's when I moved into my tent in Topanga Canyon , which is where this story started-on the day I met Charlie Manson. After watching a wedding caravan scream up the canyon-I remember horns blaring and the flowing streamers and tin cans tied to the cars-I pulled my pack out of the tent and ate some dried peaches and a handful of raisins, which I washed down with water from a canteen.

Then I kicked off my moccasins and took out my French horn. The instant I started to play, two blue-jays who hung out in a nearby scrub oak came out and started squawking; they'd been there ever since I set up camp, and they squawked each time I played music. But no one else did. There was no else around. It was my custom to sit on that hillside for hours, playing the music to trees and wildflowers, watching the leaves blowing and twisting as if they were dancing to the tune I played-the sensitivity of massive, gnarled limbs betrayed in their nimble leaves.

And when it was hot, there were always the white butterflies fluttering in pairs across the canyon, and a myriad of droning bees in the mustard weed. From my hideout I could see the elegant homes of the wealthy perched on surrounding hillsides, and a few shacks back up the canyon.

But around me was only a feral expanse of nature, now abloom in early spring; perfect; living in a pup tent on my own private mountain in the middle of L.

But those crazy birds made me think of my friend Jay, who lived up the canyon on Summit Drive , and I decided to hike down there to visit him. It was around four o'clock when I put my horn away, grabbed a sweater, and started my hike down the hill toward the riverbed which leads up the canyon to Summit Drive.

Descending the slope through the oaks reminded me of similar terrain just north of Taos , New Mexico , where the previous summer , I had spent two weeks in a hippie commune. That entire summer, in fact, I'd devoted to hitchhiking around the country, from Haight Ashbury to Taos, looking for people to live with and make music with-people who sensed then, as I did, that there was a new awakening of consciousness; a generation utterly alienated from the parents by the seemingly unbreachable gap of time and acid.

I had become acutely aware of this phenomenon on my first trip to the Haight that same summer: playing music in the city-in parks, crash pads, parking lots; smoking grass; feeling good.

It was the beginning of the psychedelic revolution and it captured the awareness of youth like nothing else in my lifetime. I met people from everywhere, hiked with them through the city and up into the mountains behind Berkeley, where we sang songs and picked flowers; we were like gypsies spreading love, giving love and flowers to people in the street; people of all ages-children, old men, women, bus drivers, cops, newspapermen, grocery clerks, ex-convicts.

It was real love and it was contagious. People have forgotten how deeply it was felt because in time it turned into a heavy rip-off drug scene and lost its potency. In fact, by September two months after Jimi Hendrix brought "a new soul sound of love" to the Monterey Pop Festival , Haight Ashbury had degenerated from a scene of smiles and flowers into a cesspool of violence and hostility: it had become a terror-stricken ghetto where those "hippies" who remained became victims of phony slop-bucket liberal do-gooders, vicious con men, or worse.

But in the beginning the love was real; it had integrity; and it turned my head around. So much so that by the time I went back to Thousand Oaks the following September to finish my senior year, I couldn't handle school any longer.

I became one of tow or three out of 2, students who started using psychedelics: "outrageous behaviors" for a student-body president. School officials said I should be "setting an example. Two months later, I was removed from office. The only president in the school's history to be so honored. I hiked along the creek bed which parallels Topanga Canyon Boulevard , taking my time, hopping from rock to rock over the silver trickle of water that glistened in the light.

After an hour I stopped on a protruding hunk of gray granite, big enough to stretch out on, and there I smoked a joint while contemplating the shadows on the rocks and the changing textures of the hillside. When it grew cold and started to get dark, I moved on. Jay's house was located at the end of the creek where the road slopes up and dead-ends against the face of the hillside.

All but hidden in a grove of oak, it gave the illusion of total isolation from the world. Beyond it, the rugged hillside swept up into an overgrown mane of mustard weed and wildflowers which looked from the floor of the canyon to be the jumping-off place to the sky.

Though there were other houses around, within a stone's throw of Jay's, they were hidden by dense foliage and the rolling contours of the landscape. Being at Jay's, you had the feeling of living in a mountain retreat. Jay was a musician who played drums for a local rock group on the Sunset Strip.

Paul was proud of this book. It also gave him a chance to say, read my book to understand, rather than continue to explain his personal history. He went on with his life. His intelligence led to his being part of the conviction of Manson at a time when the prosecution needed to prove motive for a conspiracy conviction.

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Look at your game, girl: go on. Look at your Game, girl. Just to say you love is not enough, if'n you can't Be true. His eyes were hidden behind dark glasses. At his side, resting against his rocker, was his cane. I told him I wanted to borrow his pickup to dump a load of horseshit down the canyon. Without hesitating, he reached into his vest pocket and pulled out the keys.

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