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I am aware of my breathing. I am aware of my heartbeat. I am aware that my shirt is half untucked. I take the book from him and say thanks. I put it back on the shelf. There's no way that Self-Help can help me now. I am touching his hand. I can feel Joni and Tony, keeping their curious distance.

It's like a gift to hear. He has perfect hands. If I'd seen him before, it would have damn well registered. Are you a senior?

There's nothing cool about being a sophomore. Even a new kid would know that. A girl has appeared behind him. She is dressed in a lethal combination of pastels. She's young, but she looks like she could be a hostess on the Pillow and Sofa Network. She trudges off. It is clear that he is supposed to follow. We hover for a second. Our momentary outro of regret. Then he says, "I'll see you around. I can flirt with the best of them—but only when it doesn't matter.

This suddenly matters. He leaves as Zeke begins another set. When he gets to the door, he turns to look at me and smiles. I feel myself blush and bloom. Now I can't dance. It's hard to groove when you've got things on your mind. Sometimes you can use the dancing to fight them off. But I don't want to fight this off.

I want to keep it. Zeke is packing up his gear. We're leaning against the front of his VW bus, squinting so we can turn the streetlamps into stars. He was in Art and Architecture the whole time Zeke was playing. Then you caught his eye and he ambled over. It wasn't Self-Help he was after. Where's Tony? His eyes are closed. He is listening to the music of the traffic going by. I climb over the divider and tell him study group's almost over. Then, as he's getting up, he adds, "I like it here.

Is it this island, this town, this world? More than anything in this strange life, I want Tony to be happy. We found out a long time ago that we weren't meant to fall in love with each other. But a part of me still fell in hope with him. I want a fair world. And in a fair world, Tony would shine. I could tell him this, but he wouldn't accept it. He would leave it on the island instead of folding it up and keeping it with him, just to know it was there.

We all need a place. I have mine—this topsy-turvy collection of friends, tunes, afterschool activities, and dreams. I want him to have a place, too. When he says "I like it here," I don't want there to be a sad undertone. I want to be able to say, So stay. But I remain quiet, because now it's a quiet night, and Tony is already walking back to the parking lot. I tell him it sounds like a bird.

A bird from somewhere far, far away. Hey Tony. Hey folkie chick. He's walked up-just as we're about to drive out.

I can hear Tony's parents miles away, finishing up their evening prayers. They will expect us soon. Ted's car is blocking us in. Not out of spite. Out of pure obliviousness. He is a master of obliviousness. Her irritation is quarter-hearted, at best. Ted and Joni have broken up twelve times in the past few years.

Which means they've gotten back together eleven times. I always feel we're teetering on the precipice of Reunion Number Twelve. Ted is smart and good-looking, but he doesn't use it to good effect, like a rich person who never gives to charity. His world rarely expands farther than the nearest mirror. Even in tenth grade, he likes to think of himself as the king of our school.

He hasn't stopped to notice it's a democracy. The problem with Ted is that he's not a total loss. Sometimes, from the murk of his selfnotice, he will make a crystal-clear comment that's so insightful you wish you'd made it yourself.

A little of that can go a long way. Especially with Joni. Ted moves his car, and we're off again. Joni's clock says it's , but we're okay, since it's been an hour fast since Daylight Saving Time ended. We drive into the blue-black, the radio mellow now, the hour slowly turning from nighttime to sleep. Noah is a hazy memory in my mind.

I am losing track of the way he ran my nerves; the giddiness is now diffusing in the languid air, becoming a mysterious blur of good feeling. Maybe he's right. Paul is Gay I've always known I was gay, but it wasn't confirmed until I was in kindergarten. It was my teacher who said so. I saw it on her desk one day before naptime.

And I have to admit: I might not have realized I was different if Mrs. Benchly hadn't pointed it out. I mean, I was five years old. I just assumed boys were attracted to other boys. Why else would they spend all of their time together, playing on teams and making fun of the girls? I assumed it was because we all liked each other. Imagine my surprise to find out that I wasn't entirely right. Benchly caught me at her desk and looked quite alarmed. Since I was more than a little confused, I asked her for some clarification.

Benchly looked me over and nodded. I pointed over to the painting corner, where Greg Easton was wrestling on the ground with Ted Halpern. Benchly answered. I found it all very interesting. Benchly explained a little more to me—the whole boys-liking-girls thing. I can't say I understood. Benchly asked me if I'd noticed that marriages were mostly made up of men and women. I had never really thought of marriages as things that involved liking. I had just assumed this man-woman arrangement was yet another adult quirk, like flossing.

Now Mrs. Benchly was telling me something much bigger. Some sort of silly global conspiracy. My attention was a little distracted because Ted was now pulling up Greg Easton's shirt, and that was kind of cool. Benchly told me. Always remember that. Sort of. That night, I held my big news until after my favorite Nickelodeon block was over.

My father was in the kitchen, doing dishes. My mother was in the den with me, reading on the couch. Quietly, I walked over to her. She jumped, then tried to pretend she hadn't been surprised. Since she didn't close her book—she only marked the page with her finger—I knew I didn't have much time. I thought, at the very least, my mother would take her finger out of the book.

But no. Instead she turned in the direction of the kitchen and yelled to my father. Paul's learned a new word! But eventually they got used to it. Besides my parents, Joni was the first person I ever came out to. This was in second grade.

We were under my bed at the time. We were under my bed because Joni had come over to play, and under my bed was easily the coolest place in the whole house. We had brought flashlights and were telling ghost stories as a lawn mower grrrrred outside. We pretended it was the Grim Reaper. We were playing our favorite game: Avoid Death.

It's spreading up your arm. At first, I figured I had her stumped. Then she leaned over, her eyelids closing. She smelled like bubblegum and bicycle grease. Before I knew it, her lips were coming near mine. I was so freaked out, I stood up. Since we were still under my bed, I crashed into the bottom of my mattress. Her eyes opened quickly after that.

It was with Joni's help that I became the first openly gay class president in the history of Ms. Farquar's third-grade class. Joni was my campaign manager. I'M GAY. I thought it rather oversimplified my stance on the issues pro-recess, anti-gym , but Joni said it was sure to generate media attention. So the A was struck, and the race began in earnest.

My biggest opponent was I'm sorry to say Ted Halpern. Joni threatened to beat him up, but I knew he'd played right into our hands. When the election was held, he was left with the rather tiny lint-head vote, while I carried the girl vote, the open-minded guy vote, the third-grade closet-case vote, and the Ted-hater vote. It was a total blowout, and when it was all over, Joni beat Ted up anyway. The next day at lunch, Cody O'Brien traded me two Twinkies for a box of raisins—clearly an unequal trade.

The next day, I gave him three Yodels for a Fig Newton. This was my first flirtation. Cody was my date for my fifth-grade semi-formal. Or at least he was supposed to be my date. Two days before the big shindig, we had a fight over a Nintendo cartridge he'd borrowed from me and lost. I know it's a small thing to break up over, but really, the way he handled it lying! Luckily, we parted on friendly terms. Joni was supposed to be my back-up date, but she surprised me by saying she was going with Ted.

She swore to me he'd changed. This was also symptomatic of bigger problems. But there was no way of knowing it then. In sixth grade, Cody, Joni, a lesbian fourth grader named Laura, and I formed our elementary school's first gay-straight alliance. Quite honestly, we took one look around and figured the straight kids needed our help. For one thing, they were all wearing the same clothes.

Also and this was critical , they couldn't dance to save their lives. Our semi-formal dance floor could have easily been mistaken for a coop of pre-Thanksgiving turkeys. This was not acceptable. Luckily, our principal was cooperative, and allowed us to play a minute or two of "I Will Survive" and "Bizarre Love Triangle" after the Pledge of Allegiance was read each morning.

Membership in the gay-straight alliance soon surpassed that of the football team which isn't to say there wasn't overlap. Ted refused to join, but he couldn't stop Joni from signing them up for swing dance classes twice a week at recess. Since I was unattached at the time, and since I was starting to feel that I had met everyone there was to meet at our elementary school, I would often sneak out with Laura to the AV room, where we'd watch Audrey Hepburn movies until the recess bell would ring, and reality would beckon once more.

In eighth grade, I was tackled by two high school wrestlers after a late-night showing of Priscilla, Queen of the Desert at our local theater. At first, I thought it was a strange kind of foreplay, but then I realized that their grunts were actually insults—queer, faggot, the usual.

I wasn't about to take such verbal abuse from strangers—only Joni was allowed to speak to me that way. Luckily, I had gone to the movies with a bunch of my friends from the fencing team, so they just pulled out their foils and disarmed the lugheads. One of them, I've since heard, is now a drag queen in Columbus, Ohio. I like to think I had something to do with that. I was learning that notoriety came with a certain backlash. I had to be careful. I had a gay food column in the local paper—"Dining OUT"—which was a modest success.

I'd declined numerous pleas to run for student council president, because I knew it would interfere with my direction of the school musical I won't bore you with the details, but let me, just say that Cody O'Brien was an Auntie Mame for the ages.

All in all, life through junior high was pretty fun. I didn't really have a life that was so much out of the ordinary. The usual series of crushes, confusions, and intensities. Then I meet Noah and things become complicated. I sense it immediately, driving home from Zeke's gig.

I suddenly feel more complicated. Not bad complicated. Just complicated. I hope that he's looking for me, too. Joni promises me she'll be my search party spy. I'm afraid she'll get too carried away with the job, dragging Noah over to me by the ear if she finds him. But the connection isn't made. No matter how far I drift from the hallway conversations I'm having, I never drift into him. The halls are awash in Homecoming Pride posters and postweekend gossip.

Everybody is jingling and jangling; I look for Noah like I'd look for a pocket of calm. Instead I run into Infinite Darlene. Or, more accurately, she runs on over to me.

There are few sights grander at eight in the morning than a six-foot-four football player scuttling through the. If I wasn't so used to it, I might be taken aback. Perhaps it was back when she was still Daryl Heisenberg, but that's not very likely; few of us can remember what Daryl Heisenberg was like, since Infinite Darlene consumed him so completely.

He was a decent football player, but nowhere near as good as when he started wearing false eyelashes. Infinite Darlene doesn't have it easy. Being both star quarterback and homecoming queen has its conflicts.

And sometimes it's hard for her to fit in. The other drag queens in our school rarely sit with her at lunch; they say she doesn't take good enough care of her nails, and that she looks a little too buff in a tank top. The football players are a little more accepting, although there was a spot of trouble a year ago when Chuck, the second-string quarterback, fell in love with her and got depressed when she said he wasn't her type.

I am not alarmed when Infinite Darlene tells me things are such a mess. For Infinite Darlene, things are always such a mess; if they weren't, she wouldn't have nearly enough to talk about. This time, though, it's a real dilemma. He wants me to march with the rest of the team.

But as homecoming queen, I'm also supposed to be introducing the team. If I don't do the proper introductions, my tiara might be in doubt. Trilby Pope would take my place, which would be ghastly, ghastly, ghastly. Her boobs are faker than mine. Of course she would stoop that low. And she'd have gravity problems getting back up. But Trilby Pope is her weak spot.

They used to be good friends, able to recount an hour's worth of activity with three hours' worth of conversation. Then Trilby fell into the field hockey crowd. She tried to convince Infinite Darlene to join her, but football was the same season.

They drifted into different practices and different groups of friends. Trilby started to wear a lot of plaid, which Infinite Darlene despised. She started to hang with rugby boys. It all became very fraught. Finally, they had a friendship break-up — an exchange of heated classroom notes, folded in the shape of artillery.

They averted their glances dramatically when they passed in the halls. Trilby still has some of Infinite Darlene's accessories, from when they used to swap.

Infinite Darlene tells everybody except Trilby that she wants them back. My attention is beginning to wander from the conversation. I am still scanning the hallways for Noah, knowing full well that if I see him, I will most probably duck into the nearest doorway, blushing furiously.

Because while Infinite Darlene feels comfortable telling me everything, I am afraid that if I tell her something, it will no longer be mine.

It will belong to the whole school. I think I'm off the hook, but then she adds, "Is it someone special? I pray that it's not nothing. I say to her: I don't ask for much. I swear. But I would really love Noah to be everything I hope he'll be. Please let him be someone I can groove with, and who wants to groove with me. My denial has sent Infinite Darlene back to her own dilemma. I tell her she should march with the football team while wearing her homecoming queen regalia.

It seems like a good compromise to me. Infinite Darlene starts to nod. Then her eyes see something over my shoulder and flash anger. Of course, I turn and look. And there's Kyle Kimball walking by. Turning away from me like he might catch plague from a single bubonic glance. Kyle is the only straight boy I've ever kissed. He didn't realize he was straight at the time. We went out for a few weeks last year, in ninth grade.

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