Tegan and sara why even try

It had more to do with not being seen as a boy. So I need to match my hair to my body. Shaving my head at eighteen was a way of saying, This is the way I want to look and feel. And, weirdly, in those first couple of years after I shaved my head, I got so much attention from guys. The second half of our career has been almost entirely focused on identity and being queer, and that feels overwhelming at times. So there was a weird switch, and the book gave us an opportunity to talk about both halves of our career.

In a strange way, I feel like we really used the trauma and the silence that we had to muck through during those first ten years to write the book. The book has given us an opportunity to reprocess not just our adolescence but that first big part of our adult life as we came to terms with who we were and created our identity. TQ: One of the things I was most bewildered by in terms of revisiting the music was how we basically have just rewritten the same song, like, fifty times.

In terms of the way we layer our voices and the interplay between our vocals and the way we actually write, the length of our verses, the structure of our songs—all of it was developed in high school. So we figured out who we were from to Nobody was writing about that time, and therefore it just disappeared. And then another big one for me was The L Word.

And you guys. I hate it. And then I also want to be seen as that. I remember two conversations that really stuck out to me after the Pulse shooting in There was this weird stigma that felt factually untrue.

In the last five or ten years, there have been conversations about the disappearance of queer spaces and queer bars. Gay bars feel very different to me from straight bars. TQ: A lot of people have talked about how queer women have used music venues and bands as ways to get back to having a community space. That will be a big part of our legacy.

And I wanted to. So you must hang out with all the other gay bands and support one another and whatever. We love you. If you ever need anything, let us know.

It was a weird thing where every once in a while someone would say that we are beloved in the gay community. They tend to give their awards to straight women. We celebrate Carly Rae Jepsen and Taylor Swift because when people advocate for us, we embrace them and love them because we need them.

Gay people can listen to music outside of music by gay musicians. Then with [the album] Heartthrob , we started to really be embraced. I also really mark that with us being more glam and more feminine. Because it was a real shift. TQ: I think so, yeah. NPR did a wonderful piece on [our album] The Con , looking back on it, and they talked to all these young, queer artists about how much influence we had on them. I cried. It was great to hear it. It was so profound when Taylor Swift said she liked us or when Katy Perry tweeted about us, because it has been so hard at times.

They gave you the OK, so you did. That feels brave. Can you identify where that bravery came from? In some ways we did start our career sort of closeted, in that we were playing shows and doing press and radio under the cloak of being teenagers.

We were dealing with baby stuff. It was that they brought us gay press that signaled to me that people suspected we were gay and the fact that the label brought it was an indication to me that it was OK.

But we still asked for permission. How long would it have taken for us to eventually have to figure this out? They have a new album coming out. Ha, I thought. Or, I am just like you. One last thing: After that Housing Works event in May I posted a photo to social media of Tegan and Sara on stage and half my relatives commented with Congratulations! Did they think I was Sara and Tegan was the moderator? I have no clue.

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And so what if I just let go, and let Tegan have influence on what I do, and she lets me have influence on what she does? Tegan and Sara have been a major label band for almost a decade, but still act like a DIY cottage industry, particularly when it comes to merchandise. For Christmas , they made an ornament. Post Office, which she finds so upsettingly disorganized, she's discussed it with her therapist. Playing with a necklace she borrowed from her sister and will later accidentally break , she relates it back to how she and Tegan approach their work.

Nothing can ever just be OK. We're really controlling. We love being bosses, we love being leaders. The instinct started early. The Quins grew up in a lower-middle-class, racially mixed part of northeast Calgary.

Their parents divorced when they were 5. When they spent weekends at their dad's one-bedroom apartment, he took the couch while the girls shared his bed. At dinnertime, he would spin a globe and make them name the capital of whatever country their finger landed on.

If they guessed right, they went to McDonald's. If not, they ate whatever was in the fridge. As teenagers, they were high-achieving burnouts, who drank, smoked pot, and dropped acid during the school day never together, so that they could babysit each other through the trips , but volunteered and studied classical piano.

On the weekends, they would get into circle pits when bands like NOFX came through town. They picked up the guitar at age 15, and started writing together as Plunk, using the school photocopier to print the artwork for their cassettes.

It made the year-old punks suspicious. They held up their end of the bargain: They never touched drugs again, and never drank on the job. Eventually, Universal Canada paid for them to make a demo. Still, the girls approached the producer about recording an independent debut album. It's a time capsule that makes their love of Ani DiFranco obvious: crunchy guitars, angsty lyrics, husky over-enunciation, though their message is clear.

A year later, Vapor Records, the label founded by Neil Young and his longtime manager Elliott Roberts, signed the band on the spot. Both sisters were already out, and Vapor encouraged them to be open about their sexuality, believing that they could become the voice of a generation. That summer, they were invited to support Neil Young and the Pretenders in America, and studied the machinations of a well-run show. I remember thinking, This feels normal.

They put the lessons into practice. They ran a tight ship, maintaining a show binder, a merch binder, and a logistics binder. After each show, one twin kept watch as the other fed dollar bills into ATMs. This was a level of professionalism foreign even to established musicians a decade or so their senior.

It's a cool L. Sara and girlfriend Reader will follow later today to buy furniture for theirs. They both rent in L. Right now, gray, placid Holiday is nowhere to be seen. Mickey, the weirder black-and-white sibling, spends the next three hours staring out of the kitchen window, or lying spread-eagle on the rug.

Sara gets two seltzers out of the fridge, which is plastered with postcards and photos showing the couple smiling at a recent family wedding. Love You to Death is the first time Sara has written about the darkest era of her relationship with Tegan, which almost broke up the band just as they were first making commercial and critical headway. The hurt set in when Sara left for the East Coast at age Vancouver was too expensive, and she needed to escape her burgeoning twin identity crisis.

She was also the first person who intervened when the sisters fought, a role that even their parents had avoided. On tour they shared hotel rooms, where they would wrestle after shows. They also fought in front of their crew. By the time they made 's rocky, experimental The Con , they had been upstreamed from Vapor to major label Warner Bros.

The tour was grueling. They were grieving for their grandmother, who had practically raised them, and Sara for her relationship. She speaks with such intensity that she rarely lingers on the emotional details.