No.10 What should I do?

Hey again!

Just a moment, I skated with my friends.

I am taking a rest now.

I feel...boring. Yes, boring. Because I cannot skate well as my friends...I got mad about myself, especially the skating ability. I don't know what I can do for it.

Well I tried for many times or a few times I don't know. I cannot see my progress, and I feel that I am still terrible lol. Maybe I am not strong enough.

I want to be strong like my favorite skater, Yuzuru Hanyu. I remember that I mentioned it to my calculus teacher before, but she said "You can be strong just like yourself, you don't have to be like others. Remember? You said to me 'I can stay strong' at lab." Well, I appreciate that, but in the real life, my real ability is worse than I though. I feel confused now. The reason why I want to be strong as Yuzuru is that I am so weak that I don't have a confidence to face every challenge but Yuzuru can. I admire him about this because I am SO WEAK. I am trying to become strong, but the life give me a punch.

So, what should I do?